GOD-D-DESS WAN-NA-BEE

You and Me

2011-11-24T22:32:00.005+08:00

Nobody baby but you and me.

Pfffft~!

2011-11-24T16:07:00.005+08:00

They open and close you

Then they talk like they know you

They don't know you

They're friends and they're foes too

Trouble child

Breaking like the waves at Malibu

Quiet Saturday

2011-09-17T13:42:00.003+08:00

Wet
..Silence

"Hello 5MP canon!"

Lorem ipsum

2011-02-27T17:53:00.000+08:00

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Diana Ross & Marvin Gaye - Stop, look, listen to your heart

2010-12-02T06:54:00.002+08:00

I feel sick to my stomach.
And this is my remedy.

An ocean of tears is not gonna solve anything.

I thought I knew him better.

"Easily done."
These words killed me.

● Nom nom ●

2010-10-16T17:40:00.003+08:00

I love preparing bento for my panda! ☆
& yesterday I made these..

Yummmm, can't wait to make shogoyaki & okonomiyaki!

Someone's thirsty

2010-10-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

BACK

2010-08-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

WOW. I can't believe I have not been blogging since I came back from Taiwan.

Σ(▽)
( 顔文字KAOMOJI)

I hate sorting out those photos.

Poor ducklings had to race.

Omg the best strawberry ice ever. o(TﾍTo) ｸｩ

So a summery of the trip, SHOPPING, EATING
& SHOPPING.

IYTW

I LOVE THEIR CLOTHINGS!
I LOVE THEIR FOOD!
&
I LOVE THE PEOPLE THERE!

Their streets are cleaner than ours, so hur hur SG.
I MISS TOKYO.
Ok back to cleaning.

Spot the SIMILARITY

2010-06-22T12:25:00.002+08:00

Isn't that a sign?
I'm so gonna buy the figma if there is any left and they can stand next to my gigantic Yui. Hopefully they have big shops like Cospa there and I'll so get the uniform in K-on!

Testing if this works

2010-06-17T18:03:00.001+08:00

if it doesn't, its really weird then. Err, isn't Blogger by Google? and hello Android?!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.3.4

NOOOOO.

2010-06-14T12:48:00.002+08:00

Hmmm....???

Okay, maybe.

LOL

2010-05-20T11:00:00.004+08:00

I'm ashamed of you bunnies!

Miniature Tokyo

2010-05-11T09:31:00.002+08:00

Finally Assessment is OVER.
& with my new awesome screen,
I can view my holiday photos in peace.
Okay, I cheated on the tilt&shift part.

On our way to the aquarium!

(yes dolphins & etc shall be post later)

Odaiba bridge aka Rainbow bridge

(Proud to have taken this myself, awesome eh!)

The most peaceful ride ever

I meant the passengers are so well mannered unlike those fucking aunties here who can't stop talking LOUDLY on the phone on the Mrt!? Kids running around and with stinky ass people using air freshener as perfume?! IDIOTIC BITCHES/WHORES/OFFICE WEAR SLUTS IN THEIR 30s OH FUCK YOU! WITH YOUR MANICURED NAILS AND LEANING ON THE POLE WHICH ARE MEANT TO HOLD, TAPPING LOUDLY WITH UR GODZILLA NAILS ON YOUR UGLY CRYSTALLIZED iPHONES YOU i-DIOTS! I had an iPhone before you motherbitches! SLEEVELESS TOP WITH BODY ODOUR! & MOTHERFUCKING PARENTS JUST LET THEIR KIDS RUN AROUND WITHOUT SPANKING THEM OR TIE THEM DOWN! WTF WERE THEY THINKING! THIS IS NOT YOUR THOMASTHEFUGLYTOYTRAIN! IT'S NOT MEANT FOR YOUR KIDS TO FUCKAROUND IN IT! Oh father, just give me a damn car.

Street signs, exactly the same in racing games

& Lastly the Legendary Tokyo Tower!

(I did went there and took many closeup shots but that would be the later part)

1 week ahead

2010-04-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

My work station.

Tablet, laptops all ready.

This is what I'm about to do to keep myself awake!

Shit, somebody give me the spirit!

Rainy

2010-04-16T09:01:00.005+08:00

I'm so feeling this now.

So let people wonder
Let 'em laugh
Let 'em frown
You know I'll lYve you
Till the moon's upside down
Don't you remember
I was always your clown
Why try to change me now

Shittyesterday

2010-04-16T07:21:00.003+08:00

What do you do when you unknowingly bumped into an ex-boyfriend?
Ans : You give him the you-should-have-been-dead stare.

Awkard to the max but yea how lately I've been bumping into people who I haven't seen for years and suddenly appear out of nowhere? And people who I have never talked for ages suddenly msn me. Suddenly~... all in a week. Not 1, not 2, but 59999999. Okay more than 5 for sure.

Creepy. It suddenly seems like a prank.
I so wanna go for a swim even though its rainy, I just don't care anymore.

I guess it's true when if people are walking out of your life, somebody new starts walking in. I'm upset with life. I hope my friends feel better and that applies to me. Shitty day, everyone. We'll make it through.

dumb bitches

2010-04-14T19:06:00.003+08:00

I can't stand stupid fucking bitches leaving comments like "Oh mac is so awesome, so much faster than pc."

That already explains how much of a dumb whore they are.
Erm, don't fucking blame windows just because you CAN'T afford a better system.

Oh I have one of those 27" iMac, and I STILL LOVE MY PC cos it's BEAUTIFUL. Try playing fps games with that shitty magic mouse. HAHAHA!

LOVES! =)

Vid junkie

2010-04-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

Destress material :)
AUNT CHIPPY AND UNCLE FRANK!
So loving! Loves!!!

Enjoy!

Sirotan loves

2010-04-08T08:32:00.002+08:00

omg cough to death.
ASSESSMENT IN 3 WEEKS TIME.

sirotan
I WANT THIS!!!

Looks like need to wait till when we go back Japan. MOTHER GARDEN I LOVE YOU! Baby will go crazy with sirotans again. HAHAHA! EPIC!

HAPPY BITDOTBIT DAY!

2010-04-05T00:32:00.003+08:00

Wheeheee! Finally got my cracked monitor changed to a 23" full hd monitor!
LOVES! Everything is small and fineeeeeeeeee! :)
now my blog really looks (fucked-up)ly small and distorted.
Will finally FLASH up the blog after assessment!

FINALLY CAN WORK IN PEACE WITH NO COLOR MANAGEMENT ISSUE!
HAVE FUN! :)

Disappointed

2010-03-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

Sorry but I don't deal with 'INSINCERITY'.
I have also zero tolerance for your obnoxious behaviour.

Tired of repeating.
Shall have fun doing work from now on and ignore the rest.

ps: I'm so happy that something real good happened and it can't stop me from smiling whole day =)

I miss Japan

2010-03-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

This was taken when we were walking to the "nearest" station from Shinagawa to go to Kappabashi to find my favourite - wax food.

Loves.

We're so going back there again SOON. Feel like crying when I open my 'Japan trip'09' folder :( I have 16gb worth of photos am going work harder to finish editing all them asap.

Anyways,

It's been 3 years since 'One small party, one cute red tomato and two pony tails'. So fast!

Loves, my baby panda! Y

Sorry my baby dotdot

2010-02-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

Today, dotdot has lost the chance to be a mother.
She'll never be one but if she ever does, she'll be the best bunny mommy ever.
Poor girl was in labour for 12 hours and seeing her in so much pain we brought her to the vet.
Vet said that there's no chance the babies could be alive but to prevent infection, her uterus have to be removed.

It's so painful to see her like this.. not eating not sleeping.
I love her so much to see her suffer.
All I can do now is by her side as much as I can.
Other than going to school, I'll be home taking care of her.

The scene of her plucking her fur to make a nest for the babies made me cry non-stop and appreciate my mommy and her so much more.

I've learnt to love them even more, give them the best I can.
Because they are my baby bunnies.

Gambatte dotdot!
Mummy, daddy, grandma, grandpa, aunty and uncles all dotes you alot ya!
And for the 3 little angels, you'll always be remembered.

True Colors

2010-01-30T18:57:00.003+08:00

Not worth my time.
Since you only pay attention to what she says, don't bother seeing me.
Disgusted that you're into old hags.

You're sick.

Domo Arigatou!

2010-01-27T20:38:00.004+08:00

Thanks for the present(s)!
Harrrto. Finally something to be happy about. :)

Today we have karaoke, in class with our ikea ideas.
Having lecture at 9am in the morning tml :(
Who's gonna deliver breakfast for meeeeeee.

Carving&Carving for tml's print-making class.
Yikes.

Am gonna lose 5 kg I accidentally gained over the assessment period. So stress! Envy my classmate is going Korea over the weekend. Me, stucked in shittyland. I can't wait to get over with school and everything and travel with my love to EUROPE! I'll come back and tell Alvan I had the same gelato as him as well hehehe!

Signing up for japanese classes, finally.

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Even so, I'm still so broken today. :(

I don't want to think about it anymore but I can't' help it...

How can I not be, afterall it was everything I ever dreamt off.

大丈夫じゃない!!! ... o(TﾍTo) ｸｩ *sobs*

2010-01-26T00:42:00.003+08:00

meeting up with old folks and realized how I'm so not myself like how I used to be.
I forgot that I used to laugh alot and now I don't.

today was tablet madness.
doodle time was fun and followed by solitaire.
I won :)

puzzled.
disturbed.

observinggg..
'like that lor...'
that's how I always put it.
almost, dead.
Yea, confirmed.

Omfg~

2010-01-16T02:02:00.003+08:00

My parents just came back from Taiwan and they bought even MORE shit than us in Japan! I only said to get me the beauty diary mask since its cheaper there, my mom bought 9 boxes back! wtf. 90 pieces! And I thought I was going crazy shopping in tokyo.

Bought so many shirts back for me, awesome!
Hopefully they are bringing us to taipei this summer and can stay in tokyo for awhile. OMFG FML! I LOVE JAPAN!

Have yet to sort all the photos out.
CHOTTO MATE KUDASAI!

ps: OMFG When we were in japan, we saw the black cat with a kitten logo EVERYWHERE! but didn't have any clue what it is. Then when we are back here, they came back with us! LOL YAMATO TRANSPORT! MEOW! It's new in sg. LOL. MYSTERY SOLVED! I thought was some portable toilet or something cos there's a chinese character 'URGENT' in the name.

iDiots

2010-01-05T02:57:00.003+08:00

I love how ignorant people like to flaunt their iPhone infront of me.

Hello? iPhone? I've got mine in 2007.
It's like a slap in their face.
Yes it may not be a 3Gs but it's all too yesterday, or should I say, so CAVEMAN-ish.
How is it even cool when 9/10 owns an iPhone?

I miss how I was the only one with that chime ringtone for my incoming message.
Now everyfuckingbody has the same ringtone.

When I had my first laptop the iBook in 2004, everyone was wondering wtf is that white laptop!
Now it's everywhere. Probably because it's much cheaper? And not to say all intel mac are so much shittier. Can even get for free?! Like WTF!

I just love how people love to show off their new macs infront of me.
Hur hur. I will smack my apple collection in their face.

So don't tell me iPhone is the best. It's not. So suck it up and shut up.
Because I am using a so much better phone WHICH CAN ACTUALLY MAKE PHONE CALLS! WOW iDIOTICPhone. Any Japanese phone is way cooler than iPhone and not like you can afford it in Singapore. Tell me, really sua ku anot?

MacBookAir is a total piece of shittttttttttttttttttttt.
That's only because, it died on me 528374204 times.

Prologue

2009-12-30T23:06:00.002+08:00

Our 7 days trip in Tokyo

Neoprint taken in the land of kawaii.

First 3 days was just me and him.
Living more peacefully than ever.
Loves.

Until when we are back in this shittyland where everything is shitty.
Boo, all things shitty happens. :(

Till I've finally sort out all the pictures, じゃね!

RANDOM

2009-11-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

POST ASSESSMENT, FINALLY.

Pretty clouds ain't it?

oh my goodness.
When was the last time since I've properly blogged?

Anyways am going Tokyo for a week on the 17th December.
HEAVY SHOPPING, HELL YES! Am spending 2 days in Disneyland and probably going to Puroland(Sanrio) to buy Pankuchi and Cinnamon bunnies! Ofcos am so gonna buy USAMIMI (BITBIT) like ALOT! Oh-la-laaaa~

Before that, I'm gonna buy one zoom and prime lens so I can go experiment shooting on my first trip to Japan! Awesome! Actually, I can't wait to cosplay there since we'll be going to Akiharaba! So gonna camwhore like mad! Muhahaha!

Okay. blog more tomorrow.
Ah weow will be at home :)
A real cat actually.

How important?

2009-11-08T22:13:00.003+08:00

Is it about compromising or whether if the pieces fit together?

Taken from 'Is love really about compromising'

Compromise in relationship means to choose to be someone you would not naturally be, for the sake of the relationship. It is giving up being who you really are in the hope of guaranteeing the love of another. Compromise is based on the fear that unless we are somebody different to who we would naturally be, we risk losing love. All we are really risking is losing ourselves.

So what's next?
Whatever it is, gotta stay focus and get over with assessment for now.
Those were the happier days. What went wrong?

All I have to say

2009-10-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

I am yours.

However distant you may be,

There blows no wind but

wafts your scent to me,

There sings no bird but

calls your name to me.

Each memory that has left

its trace with me

Lingers forever as a part of me.

I am yours.

It's saturday night

2009-10-24T20:15:00.003+08:00

I watch bitbit and dotdot together I just want to cry.
They are so sweet together, cleaning each other and they even hugged each other to sleep.
I just wanna fucking cry everytime I go for the fucking Australia collage open house.

Either way it's just gonna be like how it was.
Honestly, what can I do but to see it dies before my eyes.
Nobody is gonna stop anyone.

Seriously, it's like living through cancer.

SHIT ITS THURSDAY

2009-10-21T22:12:00.003+08:00

I AM LISTLESS AND EXHAUSTED.
Just came back from school and baby's not here.
Nobody but bitbit & dotdot with me.
2 lazy baby bunnies and one big lazy bunny.
Lazy panda snoozingx500 at home.

I'M SO TIRED AND THERE'S SO MUCH TO DO.
I hope I can make it to tomorrow.
I NEED HUGS.
SATURDAY PLEASE COME.

Burning

2009-10-11T23:59:00.002+08:00

WEAK.
Am down with fever, again.
I hate bodyache even my fingers are hurting now.

Thankfully baby took care of me today even though most of the time he was reading his fan fiction.
Off to bed. aching and drowsy.

Happy 2nd anniversary.

2009-06-04T12:57:00.003+08:00

Today.
I wish we had it planned.

It's sad to see how this day just pass by like that.
I could have done something better for sure.
Mood starts to sink and I can't get anything to work.
I want it to be done so badly for you but it's not turning out right.

Postpone.
Looks like I'll have to postpone mine as well.

If you have cherished and appreciated the things I made you more, this won't be even happening today. Rather than telling me 'I didn't force you to do anything'. I'd have been ultra motivated to do whatever I've planned for you or even bigger.

My pathetic durian puff is puff without filling.
I'm a pathetic gf and fuck off.

Our first was too good now it makes everything looks bad.
Happy 2nd anniversary my dear.

Sorry

2009-05-28T10:57:00.002+08:00

"Panda's dream is that one day, we will have so many different wallpapers that
one day, we'll be able to create a montage of another wallper using nothing but
all the other wallpapers that we have."

Soon we will be able to do it baby.
I love you.

I'm sorry for being lazy for the whole year.
I'll do it just for you, i promise.

A lost bunny

2009-05-22T22:04:00.010+08:00

Your eyes told me everything.
That I don't belong.

Nothing wrong with crying because I had my heart broken by you whom I love most.
Won't ask for anything more.

Symbol of love would be in my heart.
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Am gonna revamp this whole blog yay!
It's time, it's time.

Anyone interested would be glad to help.
But no promises :)

It's bad having Suteki da ne playing on repeat.
The music fits perfectly now, sorrow.

Boring.

2009-05-16T17:38:00.006+08:00

L4d anyone?

I love my new computer!
Am addicted to Reaper and Monk.
Miss the good old times.

My finale.

2009-05-09T22:19:00.003+08:00

On the last word of the book of love, and there it ended.

For you, I will

2009-05-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

"Love is no one man show.

Please don't give a damn about it girl.

If he doesn't, you shouldn't.

Putting in so much effort and all you get is his lousy attempt of responding.

Walk away, ignore and go."

O.v.e.r

2009-04-18T10:58:00.001+08:00

I'll never shed another tear for you again.

默默

2009-04-17T18:04:00.004+08:00

Can't wait for everything to be confirmed! :)
Shall send camera for cleaning first.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

___________________________

Anticipation has died.

Rusty & dusty

How does it feel to be appreciated?

Throwing everything away since you don't to take it.

2009-04-11T05:24:00.003+08:00

I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more...

shit..

2009-03-11T19:00:00.002+08:00

Sigh.
Can't wait for school to end.

Am upset about what happened.
No reason it just poof, gone.
Thought we used to get along well.
BAH WILL REALLY MISS THOSE DAYS.

Need a really good hug now.
Suck on that.

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T02:31:00.002+08:00

Baby did all the surprise for this valentine's!
Too tired to blog more.
Shall update more soon!

I Y you notti panda!

Angry 20th monniversary

2009-02-04T09:49:00.002+08:00

School is just a waste of time!
Ugh.

Today is our 20th monniversary.
Making things for you is like a waste of time cause all you do is take a look and sleep. Stupid panda! It's like the things I've made for you for the past year you left it lying everywhere and I had to spring clean your room to find it.

I know I am supposed to tell you I love you but today, I am gonna tell you I hate you for not appreciating my love!

Spent 12mins writing you a note and all you do is send me fucking short-smses in fucking dead tones..

"Home."
"Ya. Love you."
"Reaching soon."

Then can happily send longer smses to your friend.
YOU PIG!

Only human

2009-01-30T18:57:00.005+08:00

Yes, why all the sickeningly sad post? Where has all the good and sweet awesome posts that I should be posting? I don't know either. ask him.

Is it normal for couple to quarrel?
..Normal to have forgetful boyfriends?
..Normal to doubt our boyfriends?
..Normal for them to start looking at others but you?
..Normal to not trust each other sometimes?
..Normal that boyfriends will love you less after sometimes?
..Normal to be taken for granted?
..Normal for things to get blend?

Why can't I be the one to be forgetful?
Why can't you be the one to doubt me?
Why can't I be the one start staring around?
Why can't I be the one to love you less?
Why can't I be the one to take you for granted?
Why isn't it me?

Are those all normal? Or is it just us...
Will love really get stronger after we work through the difficulties together?

Will it this time?

Sometimes sweet memories haunt me. Because they won't happen again no matter how hard we try. Yet, I'm always craving for it. I wish I am forgetful so that they won't be carved on my heart. Sigh is this the side effects of love? Or is it us...

I wish there's a power to take me away from you it doesn't matter what it is, illness or sickness then maybe you will start realizing..

I miss being loved.
After crying buckets of tears, I'm not getting anything.

No matter how much I write, I cry, I do for you, we will still be the same like this right? Can we change for the better? I think I am slowly dying..

Pain.

2009-01-29T22:57:00.005+08:00

I can't describe the pain.
I've no regrets cause I've always put in all my effort in building our relationship.
I have done my best ever already...

There's nothing wrong wth me getting angry because you appreciate other girls.
It's all your fault. If you haven't done things behind my back, nothing would have happened. If you've not saying whatever things about her, the topic wouldn't be brought up about her.

Shaking in the coldness of love.
I wish in your heart, your eyes, the space is exclusively for me.

Will you remember me as someone that once changed your life into better?
I guess not.

Lets start well!

2009-01-27T18:53:00.006+08:00

Days ago I happened to see my old friend and her boyfriend looking so lovey dovey together... Immediately felt so jealous.

*sulks*

If only I have my life recorded I'd let the first half of 2007 play on loop.
But what the hell, everything has already went wrong and it's getting worse, after that everything will be at its best! Goodbye 2008 that was filled with mistakes and misery.

Hello 2009!
HAPPY CNY!

Dejavu

2009-01-25T01:45:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, everything feels so familiar again.
The pain that used to haunt me is back..

2 years ago i went through this..
I thought i was saved when i know him..
he made me feel that i shouldn't fear of anything because he made me believe that he will always be there for me no matter what..
but now he's putting me back into the situation when he picked me up.

I am terrified as i m in this alone on my own. There's no one out there to care for me.. Now I'm all alone.. Help me.

Let our love rot

2009-01-23T13:30:00.004+08:00

I'm not feeling well but he never asked anything about it.
Things like how am I feeling or have I been eating..
Not at all.

Once he's out with his friends he can leave me behind.
Don't even bother to ask about me. No messages no nothing.
I know I'm not a baby I don't expect you to take care of me but if you love me like you claimed, you'd want to know how I'm doing.

I miss love.

We can be in the same room all day doing seperate things. I never know how he feels since we have never really talked after being together..

There's not much interaction between us.
Writing all sorts of diary for him and all the emails that I don't get response from him.
I'm so upset because I can't do anything to change it. No matter how much effort I put in, things still remain like shit.

'Helpless'

Even so, he can spend all his time looking at other websites but my blog which he clearly knows this is where I grumble about my fucking life.

No effort to know me.

Not to say to know me better, he doesn't understand me at all. Why must I tell you how I want to be loved? Can't you just love me without asking how? You can't even freaking remember what brand of camera I use when you're the one who bought it with me and I use it so often?! All you can say is 'I'm forgetful'. Fine but how about trying to ask how I feel? It's really not all about you.

Let's just fuck it too.
Oh, fuck it.
Why cry?

If.. there's no if.

2009-01-22T23:18:00.006+08:00

If I were a boy

I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Just happened to see this mtv on tv and then googled the lyrics. WOW. It's saying what I've been trying so hard to explain. I can't believe that there are people who felt the same as me. And all along I've been saying...

"I wish you were me and I'll be you then you'll know what pain is."

Knowing that's impossible to be a boy, love a girl then :)
Let's cherish what we have now baby before it turns into my 'brokenrelationship' project. I'm glad that we talked but if that happens again, then it shall be the last.

It'd only be fair for you to hurt me if I'd hurt you.
But, I never did.

Hope you won't turn me into someone who doesn't appreciate the happiness of love anymore because the heart will get used to pain someday..

I know that you've lied.

Why can't I bear to hurt you like how you did to me. Perhaps you're out having beer with your friends now but telling me you're asleep. Haven't I been too obedient? Because of what you did it's harder to trust. I wish we can start fresh but there's no way. Why is our love stained like that... If I can paint love, it'd be rough with chipped edges.

Don't blame me for this, you started it.

Your only chance to prove your love is to mend it.

happy 21st...

2009-01-15T23:58:00.003+08:00

baby has broken my heart just 2 days before your birthday,
where i've planned everything out nicely.

whyyyyyyy do you have to spoil all the fun?
my heart's tired.

where's yours?
show me that you care.

I shall carry on with that I've planned..
Don't take this for granted.
There's nothing left to break..

Getting fed up

2009-01-10T00:35:00.003+08:00

It's friday night.
I'm hungry but he's asleep.

I can hear my inner voice screaming for HELP!
Everyone's out but me.
Nothing's going on.

Not being fed but getting fed up.
Is it so hard to bring me out to eat?
To do such simple thing for me?
Thanks for loving me so damn much.

To i don't know who.

2009-01-08T19:11:00.004+08:00

omg anonymous.
Are you sure u know who i am?

Please don't stay anonymous cos you've name for a reason.
tsk.

yea those were the days which i don't even know of cos..
I've no idea who you are!

OMG PLEASE JUST EMAIL ME ALRIGHT?
are u fat skinny tall short moley?
LOL WHATEVER!

whatever shape or size you're just message me I'm sure if we were close I'll have a billion things to share with u about my life now!

WHY ARE WE HAVING SUCH AN OPEN CONVO?
Oh right.. cos i've no idea how to contact you!
If you really treat me as a friend just email me!

I'm more fun than ever, trust me.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
just as pissy as usual. LOL!
Bah.

Female? Male?
From which class were we in together?
...
Email me!!! Thanks.

RAR!

2009-01-07T19:33:00.002+08:00

ANONYMOUS?! where are u?

lol email me please.

i miss all my old friends.

and i want to know who u are!

ANGRY

2009-01-07T11:07:00.004+08:00

My health cannot keep up with you.

I panic everytime when you're not doing what you supposed to and always never inform me what is going on and if whatever shit happens you blame me for it!

WHY AM I SO FUCKING STRESSED?

cos I'm blamed for whatever reason that has nothing to do with me!!!!

My chest hurts alot and I know not like you care!

Ofcos you never cared about me.

I'm like your living organizer!

I know where your stuff are kept and what activities when and where.

You totally ignored my life. Doesn't remember anything about me.

You never think for me! Never cared how I feel, NEVER!

I AM EXHAUSTED.

I know all you can say now is "Fine then don't do it! I didn't ask you to!"

ya but I get blamed for it after that if I don't.

Sigh.

don't care anymore.

it's getting harder to breathe.

Hugless days :(

I need hugs badly.

痛

2009-01-05T19:18:00.003+08:00

Love is a beautiful thing。。。

多美丽多难得

Love is a wonderful thing。。。

就是那么爱你 什么都想为你

爱是一种毒瘾正在发作

你知道我爱你 会爱到很久

甜蜜不必急着说 慢慢享受

Choking...

2009-01-05T02:03:00.003+08:00

Long distance relationship.

I've died once from that.

2007.

Trying very hard to heal.

Changed my outlook and made more friends.

And I found you.

You talked to me and tried very hard to help me moving on with life. You saved me. Life couldn't be better. I was the happiest and I felt like I needed nothing else...

Now, our love is like cancer.

Waiting for time to pass.

It may or may not be cured.

2 years ago I've been crying to sleep everynight.

I'm not letting it to happen.

The cut is gonna be way deeper for I really love you.

What now?

I really don't know.

2009

2009-01-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!
Offically my first post of the year.

Yesterday was the first time we took the Rx8 out. LOL wanted to flaunt around in it but halfway the brakes died on us because they didn't send it back to the same workshop. But 2 hours of joyride was awesome!

Hope mommy can let us drive it on baby's 21st birthday if we are going for fine dining HEHEHE!

omg sunday is our 19th monniversary hopefully we can go take neoprints with my short hair before it grows long. I know I have a dslr and a wacom but I just think taking neoprint is a totally different experience. Btw they are called Purikura but neoprint is just what we are familiar with.

SO ANYWAYS,
new year.

First thing first. AM SO GONNA CLEAN MY ROOM TOMORROW. Then enjoy the last weekend with darling before school starts. & on Monday, we're gonna turn lasalle's office into hell because we'll fight for the rights for Alvan to be transfered to our class!

2008 was kinda rubbish.
Lots of shit happened.

But wtf yo! New haircut, nottiest but mosterest loving boyfriend, besterest friends who are willing to give me a helping hand when I needed help, parents who have been sponsering for everything (hehehe) and lastly my furriest darlings who I share my bed with! Woohoo!

Am off to bed soon cos gotta wake baby up.
That's all!

ps: anonymous, no worries :) just email me and we can talk about it. maybe it was some misunderstanding inbetween or somewhere.

New year's resolution

2008-12-31T07:32:00.004+08:00

Be a LUCKYSTAR!

SICK AGAIN

2008-12-29T12:29:00.006+08:00

OMG! I just watched Ponyo Ponyo! Can't remember the title but I shall just call it by the song's repetitive 'PONYO PONYO PONYO SAKANA KO NO' LOL! Can't help but screaming KAWAII non stop.

"HAMMMMM"

Like baby loves ham!

I watched it because the song was damn annoying! LOL But now I kept singing to baby when he calls LOL!

ok am off to bed.

Had food poisoning. and lost 1kg after puking like a merlion WOOHOO!

Reply

2008-12-20T00:40:00.007+08:00

OMG may i know who's this kind ANONYMOUS soul who left me a comment???

So touched.
You're first in a million years to comment.

LOL.

How have I been. GOOD QUESTION.
I thought it was obvious that I've been pissy when all my post I have been sounding pissy.

Well, lets put it this way, the day I stop being an angry person is the day when all the man carries hellokitty. LOL

KIDDING YO! Who are you I'd like to know...
Woohoo! Passed Sem 1& OMG TO ALVAN,

HAPPY 19th BDAY!

Ps: omg someone actually googled 'Bleusoup kinky' this week. You mean there are actually human reading this other than my baby?! *jaw drops* I honestly have not much to blog about BUT i do have many pics to post of which I am too lazy to edit BUT will try to get to it BUT REALLY? Anyways weekend panda is out and means, sunday I am going for my first shooting class... *bangs*

stfu

2008-12-18T22:48:00.002+08:00

New haircut!
Sigh.

Baby's Haludi. (Haruhi). He loves my hair so much just beocs i resemble his stupid haruhi. Bleh baby buy me the uniform then call me haruhi. Sigh. Tsk.

Why so pissy?

Christmas again *rolleyes*.

Why can't it be just cuddling in bed and watch romance comedy movies or whatever? I can see all chaotic shit happening. I don't even want to start on it cos it will never end...

Dislike x'mas.

Lets all drink!

Sian!

2008-12-10T16:53:00.004+08:00

omg my blog is 4 years full of crap.
Proudness that this can sustain almost half a century LOL

fucking bored la.

baby took my wii away WHILE I AM OFFICIALLY ON HOLIDAY after my final submission cos I suggested that it would be fun if we brought the wii over to his place during bbq so that there would be something to do for the whole family and then everyone wants to have a piece of it and *poof* it's no longer mine!

pissed off.
it's supposed to accompany me so while his away I've got something to do. VERY EVIL.
*stabs gargar*

YA! Totally blame you for my boredom!

Bah very turned off and I don't want it back anymore. Freaking wanna throw the dslite at him. I've got better stuff to do anyways. Example: sleeping 22 hours everyday to rejuvenate. Chop off my hair and maybe get hair extentions so I can get my curls back! Be very vain.

(I'm not being materialistic becos I want that damn machine but is that I AM FUCKING BORED and he took the thing I could do at home away from me.) *rolleyes to the back of my head* *Now you know the reason why I was so fucking pissed on sunday.

Ugh. don't want to talk about him anymore.
REALLY getting on my nerves.

Yesterday after resubmission Denise and I totally rot in town for the whole day even though we were like half dead due to lacking of sleep unexpectedly end up in PARTYWORLD for the freaking first time. LOL Next time must go back together with Alvan the background dancer wahaha! Then after that went to dhoby ghaut's arcade and tried out their new machine. Reached home totally dead after shower.

Maybe I should totally make xmas cards for friends again since I'VE GOT NOTHING TO DO. *hinting boyfriend* Yep. Get crafty again yo! Ofcos i still love my stupid panda! And he finished my cookies! LOL! I LOVE YOU! BUT I AM ANGRY WITH U FOR TAKING THE WII AWAY! RAR!

Happy 18th monniversary

2008-12-05T23:36:00.003+08:00

Yay it's Friday and just knew baby can book out today, now.
I was so close to start grumbling about him being stuck

Have not been baking for forever since the oven has been so fucked up. Remember those secondary school days when I used to bake for whatever nonsensical reasons. & how my mom attended baking lessons everyweek, I ended up as a guinea pig for annoying QC (tasting). Mooncakes, tiramisu, croissants & etc.

For you my darling!
Happy 18th Monniversary!

Starting from scratch again,
Baking simple chocolate chip cookies for my darling as a surprise which he doesn't know yet! Don't want to risk baking other shit since the oven may ruin everything. I quit pavlova already. Don't ask me.

--------------------
AM SO ANNOYED.
I think people I am closest to annoyed me like mad. Selfish and inconsiderate. Fucking love forcing me to do stupid things the way they want it.

Fuck I've no freedom.
Fuck respect.
Fuck double standards.

I can ONLY rant to my friends. Cos the people I am closest to will only lecture me like fuck I am stupid? HELLO DO I WANT TO FIND SOMEONE ON PURPOSE TO DISAGREE WITH ME WHEN MY LIFE IS FUCKED? Noooooooooooooooooo. *rolleyes*

& FUCK I know they all care about me BUT I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO AGREE WITH ME SOMETIMES! DUH!

Shut the fuck up and NOT listen since I HAVE NO SAY IN ANYTHING!

For fuck sake at least support me for awhile.

The true idiots who really love me STOP giving me the 'Fuck, do it my way' shit.

This is never gonna end, WHY?

COS THEY THINK I AM HOPELESS I THINK THEY ARE TOO.

Sick of family drama and I know my bf loves me alot but.... UGH just I KNOW U ARE RIGHT LIKE 180% but you as a bf should tell me what I want to listen at times. You are still the besterest boyfriend. I'm just pissed that you always get angry with me all the time because of things that doesn't even affect you. GAR! I'm the victim now!

Thank GuanYinMa that I still have crazy fun friends who would totally listen to my blabber of daily thrash spitting. (Even though I don't have many friends anymore)

I am so going to the dermatologist and get my scalp checked. I miss my lucky curls. I WANT THEM BACK! 2008 is fucked and please be OVER! LOL Be 蒋小花!

Okay. Let's get back to happy mood :)
Smiles.

start of the week again

2008-12-01T15:00:00.004+08:00

Ugh.
Pissy!

I miss panda! & he's all busy with work and work and.. poopie and work. rar! happiest time of the week is when baby book out :P cuddles* silly panda bought me a wii after assessment. RAR! and i've yet to earn a single dollar to buy him anything. sulks*

BESTEREST BOYFRIEND:: PANDA WONG

and poor baby accidently got his finger burnt becos he was trying to make me pancakes yesterday and i totally got pissy because i wanted barchormee & was starving like mad.

so sad. bad girlfriend.

and baby wants to buy me a real bunny! AHHHHH.
i can't even clean myself how to clean a real bitbit?
:(

but still *kisses for my darling for being so sweet!

everyday is like 'drama' at home.
HATE IT/

3 more days and it will be officially 1.5 years with my baby! RAR! I doubt he'll remember but I'm still gonna think of something to surprise him!

ps: baby! gargar and tissue box gargar is 1 year old! and souski is 6 months old and bitbit still as annoying as everrrrr! *ring ring*

digs*

2008-11-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

Posted: Thu Mar 01, 2007 9:24 am

"if it was just for the sake of protecting the govemental figure heads, than there would be no way i hell i would die for my country. however, if it is for the sake of protecting my family and the ones i love, than yes, i believe that i would gladly die to protect them."

Giggles
&
more giggles

would like to know who are the oneS you love.
grrrrrr

*hearts Y

Nov 3rd

2008-11-03T19:36:00.002+08:00

To the most handsome grandpa ever!

this weekend isn't it grandparents day?

I've always been proud of my grandpa!

black-iest hair in his 70s

neatest teeth ever.

fetch me home after school without fail everyday.

even till i was pri 6 he insisted carrying my bag for me.

I'll never forget.

All the fancy lollipops he bought for me because I threw tantrum.

The cutiest snoopy bowl, snoopy toys comes with happy meals.

Power ranger toys.

I'll miss shouting 'Ah gong'.

i miss his peanut lotus soup

i miss the baked beans with mince meat

he was never biased.

he was always strong.

I always liked going out as a family of 5.

My ah gong rocks!

I'll miss you so much.

l,o,s,e,r

2008-10-24T00:26:00.002+08:00

I cant fucking stand pirated version of USAMOMO. Named USASA?
KNNWTF.

Sorry mine is authentic
and i'll freaking spit in ur face if u own one of that crap.
Because, you are a fucking disgrace to all bunnies.

*huggies bitbit*

now you know if you have got Usasa, it's fake.

CMYK

2008-09-30T08:51:00.005+08:00

colorful macarons
xrtemely cute cookies
pretty cupcakes

tokidoki merchandise
plus bows and ribbons
...

nothing else.
lens cannot satisfy my current craving.

GIVE ME MORE COLORS!
sigh.

give me a chance to exclaim "omg pretty colors!" on this day!

Just for panda

2008-09-28T23:12:00.006+08:00

baby loves it.
shall try harder.
my first attempt okay!

duh i've eyes to see it doesn't look appealing
but it didn't taste bad at all!
& i made the tamago from scratch!

sweet but painful weekend.
physically painful like ouch.

i miss my darling!
tuesday night i see him again.
i'm his velcro strap (:

first time watching f1 without baby beside me.
it was totally weird.
baby never had miss a race until he entered ns.

i wished he was here explaining to me what was going on.
i love it how my boyfriend knows so much about cars.
not only cars. he's good in almost everything.
my boyfriend is a living encyclopedia!!!

Baby, will i get an SLR McLaren Roadster for my coming bday? *blinks*

gotta rest my butt now.
I LOVE PANDA! Y

*muacks

notti panda

An awesome week!

2008-09-22T21:14:00.003+08:00

Needn't blog when baby's out cos I've glued to him for a whole week :)

Am down with stupid flu again
& turned into a coughing machine

& baby bought me a dslite! maybe he's annoyed how everytime I get whinny when I see tons of hello kitty skin for ds and not psp.

BESTEREST BOYFRIEND!
and I've freaking collected my license! HAH! Baby used to drive me and now it's my turn to drive him around!Love my baby lots!

I've got so much shit to do like cleaning my room because I'm gonna repaint and refurnish. While I'm 'free' this whole week since baby's back in camp already, shall just get everything done.

Bought a mini bitbit keychain and shot it with macro lens :)
Yes, it's that small!

LOL I can take this kinda photo now! *LAUGHS*

P.O.P

2008-09-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

BABY'S POP TML!
I EVEN RENTED A TELEPHOTO LENS FOR IT!

humph! proudness okay?!
Good quality photos of my darling's pop!
wahahaha!
so proud of myself.

Oh yeah!
Honeymoon resumes tomorrow!

Tomorrow as in 8 hours later!
Good night!

Fri-day

2008-09-05T10:02:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY BABY.
yesterday was pissy because my head itched like mad.

and baby cannot book out today
but he's passing out on wednesday!!!
YYY

VACATION
i want it so bad!

Week 5 of school

2008-09-02T19:19:00.004+08:00

Finally got the chance to blog.
Quite busy but mostly lazy?

Weekend are totally occupied cos baby's out from camp! I LOVE YOU BABY!

Today is the first official lesson I attend for suang suang class. TOTALLY LOVE IT! Not that stress and so fun! Well mostly because I was sitting with my clique! Love my new classmates cos they are so damn funny!!! After class went out with the NORTHEASTLINE clique for dinner LOL!

No class tomorrow! Must finish homework so can totally spend time with my panda! Omg I am so gonna make him a surprise bento again! It's like 15th monniversary this Thursday! Monniversary wallpaper and a mini present! omg maybe I can totally make a panda & bunny bento! Btw, according to baby, he actually said the bento I made him was 'quite' delicious! I love making things for baby! Because he's my baby! MANLIEST MAN EVER! *ROAR*

Got afew photos to upload but I guess I can make use of that time to sleep more and DO HOMEWORK!

BLOG AGAIN.

SORRY!

2008-08-31T03:14:00.002+08:00

Baby's in the shower now and we just came back from AMK hub watching WALL-E!
I slept throughout, almost cos it was too damn cold! and I love being hugged by baby!

I'll leave my blog on and go shower after he's done so he will see this apparently!

BABY! I LOVE YOU!

sorry for being so naughty just now.

Dear panda

2008-08-19T22:42:00.009+08:00

I miss you so much.

& i am so so worried for you!

Through the phone I know you're just saying things because you don't want me to worry. I've been taken my medicine on time and have taken my meals regular! I love you! & I'll do my best to make things better for you!

I LOVE U!

My Y is with you!!!

Horrible week

2008-08-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

Fever.
Throat infection.
Lost my voice.
Cough blood.

*rolleyes*

& this is the 2nd time that I'm sick while my boyfriend's away.
how did he do it to get away with it?

I surprised baby with kawaii bento!

baby treats me to Cafe Oliv
we watched the most bo-whor-ing movie, the mummy.
because it was so boring that I ended up playing 'sweet or salted' with the popcorns and finished all of it.

Then we brought notti wayway to the dog cafe on sunday!

yay! finally baby's booking out today.

if he upsets me he's a big meanie!

PANDA MADNESS

2008-08-01T15:41:00.007+08:00

1more day & baby's booking out from camp!

He's stucked in jungle again :(

Have yet to try driving out so hopefully I can practice abit before fetching my dear panda! Miss you so so so so much! Anyways I've got plenty of photos to post. Absolutely random but that's how I like it done.

Since baby entered NS, he has been wanting to cook something everyweek. Or was it your notti girlfriend who bugged you to cook for me hehehe.

First week he cooked me yummy pasta with cheese hotdogs.

Then he made simple and delicious pizza.

Last week he made the 'worth to die for' pork chops!

It was so good that I had 2!

Well, I am supposed to make him a surprise bento this week cause I thought that he'll book out on sunday and book in on the same day. But since he's booking out tomorrow and will be coming over to my place, it'd be very silly to give him the bento! :( I know! So I'll do it the next time without notifying him :) Tomorrow I'll be making my yummiest ever vodka creme spaghetti!!! And next week baby's cooking pork ribs! LIKE AM I THE LUCKIEST GF EVER OR WHAT?

(Honestly, I can wait to make my bento that gonna overflow with love for darling! You've no idea what I've already prepared! Grrr!)

Okay. I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH, and you know how he's my panda? I HAVE TO BE PANDA OVERLOADED. I AM GONNA SHOW YOU GUYS HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM! I know it seems silly but, that's love. Love makes you go crazy. And for someone like me who's genetically crazy already, things get OVERRATED! I KNOW YOU ARE FREAKING JEALOUS! HUR! :)

Remember the HELLOKITTY keyboard I have for my birthday? I can't believe what I've done to it but come'on, how can you resist something so cute like this!

Presenting my panda keyboard!

I'm so proud of myself! Seriously! Who the hell have the patience to clean every single key with nail polish so that it's clean enough for the stickers to stick properly and will never peel off! Yes that's like cleaning nails before sticking anything on! That picture was taken recently after using it for months! It looks as good as new. *Smirk*

Well after that I thought hey, why not make my own panda and bunny decal? And I did! I've it sticked on my iphone! It's your fucking problem if you think it's crazy to ruin your iphone by sticking anything onto it when it's designed to perfection already. Let me tell you, I do it BECAUSE I CAN! HAHAH! I HATE silicon condom! That's just silly, protecting a pretty phone with an ugly piece of rubber. Why bother?

Faceless because it was too small that the face peeled off

And a month ago, it was our 13th monniversary. Poor baby was already in camp so I thought of making him something that he would have never thought of. A BEADED PANDA!

'Elephanda'

I know it looks like an elephant but that was my first attempt in beading! We made plenty of jokes about it. Hahaha! Baby kept repeating "why does it look like that?!" LOL! Sorry honey!

I guess the funniest was last week's surprise. I once told him that if we have babies, I'm so gonna dress the boy in panda suit and girl in kawaii furry bunny suit and baby replied "Ok we're not having any kids next time". *pouts* I mean isn't it so cute having a panda and bunny crawling around the house?! Last week when I was out with Lisa shopping for clothes, I saw something that's gonna hunt baby forever! LOL

Our newborn 'Bit bit'

Baby couldn't stop laughing when he saw its notti face! hehehe! Gar gar has a new girlfriend! The bunny came separately with the panda suit. I thought it was for puppies! LOL That was definitely not an impulse buy.

My dearest boyfriend also had a surprise for me last week. He hinted before that it had something to do with panda.. and I was thinking was it a panda skillet? bag? egg mold? panties? It was a shocking surprise! YYY

From the sweetest boyfriend ever!

OMG BEIJING OLYMPICS VISA GIFT CARD! PANDA JING JING! Baby knew I was crazy ever since they revealed the Olympics mascots and there's a freaking panda! I still remember I was obsessed with Micheal Phelps (who's in Singapore now!) 4 years ago that I told my parents I have to go Beijing to see him in person myself! Well it's not gonna happen because baby's stucked in camp already and I don't care anymore cos I only want to see my panda now!!! My besterest boyfriend ever!

I've got the besterest parents ever too. To 'compensate' my loss, mommy told my uncle who went to Beijing recently to get the Olympics merchandise!

*drools* panda panda panda... *drools*

Already stated it's gonna be panda overloaded. I even designed a panda shirt for him and a bunny shirt for myself. I don't have his shirt with me so I've gotta post it another day :) Our first couple shirt! I promised my darling that I'll silkscreen it instead but I've yet to make the stencil :( sorry dear! That's how much I love panda because of my boyfriend!

I wear panda.

I carry panda.

I eat panda.

I know I've already posted the panda instant noodles before but I didn't have my Dslr yet. Now I can finally take pretty pictures like that to satisfy my visual cravings! Sigh. I've not talked to baby for 30 hours already. Missing him like crazy. Wow this entry is really long but I'm not done yet!

The first week when baby booked in it was like hell for me. I rot at home every single minute and didn't know what to do. So I thought I can cheer baby up by making him a gundam model!

I know I'm such an awesome girlfriend right? *rofl* That's because I've an awesome boyfriend! Oh, proudness! While he was in training I was so bored that I was playing with my camera. Always wanted to try light drawing and so finally I did. It's more tiring than climbing 16 story which I do almost everyday.

Randomness, I've finally bought something from HEROIC RENDEZVOUS! We were there on our anniversary and baby took a seriously funny picture of me staring at the shirt with a 2 pony tail girl. Which on that day I tied 2 pony tail too. HAHAHA I thought it was a must buy.

And after so long for bugging edwin to get my game, I couldn't wait anymore my ass was on fire already so we went to get it ourselves instead. Now I can play co-op with baby! Don't you just dig the red faceplate?

Hmm anyways, I'll end this entry with darling's doggy. His sister's actually. It was taken by baby and it's so cute! No we are not related to the little boy but it's really a good picture!

wayway: "I'm not an exhibit!"

"I want my cheese burger.."

Fetching my baby!

2008-07-29T20:32:00.003+08:00

Sup bitches! Guess what?
I finally got my license!!!!

The day when I don't have to carry many shopping bags and squeeze into the train is closer! Well probably still have to wait for a few months until I am ready to be on the road myself. OMG I can't freaking wait to drive the RX8 cannn!!!

The first person I am gonna fetch is my baby! Ofcos my parents will be in the car with me for the first few weeks. OKAY I AM SO FREAKY TIRED! I've got so much to blog about esp my baby panda! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OKAY! BESTEREST BOYFRIEND!

SHALL BLOG TOMORROW!

My saddest week ever

2008-07-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

OMG. It's 4 days since I last heard from baby.
He's stucked in jungle somewhere.
I'M REALLY DYING.
I refuse to go anywhere but shopping with Lisa.

This is our first time being 'isolated' like this!
We've never not talked to each other more than a day.
I can't imagine how am I gonna survive through this when school starts.
A WHOLE NEW CLASS again.

Baby promised to cook yummy porkchops for me on saturday.
& I'm gonna surprise him with our new baby and a lovely dinner when he's finally out!
I Y MY PANDA MOSTEREST

...
I am so happy that we have all the msn conversation history saved ever since day godwin's birthday party.

*sobs*

I MISS EVERYTHING!

My boyfriend in camp

2008-07-20T23:29:00.003+08:00

I miss my baby so much! Ugh!

This week he won't be able to contact me at all!

5 days of torture.

Baby got to see his surprise on saturday! Kinky!

Hope you love it darling!

He made pizza for me, and even bought me something online that he says that it's a surprise which I'm gonna get when he booked out this week.

My sweetest boyfriend everrr!

I'll get to eat his pork-chop this weekend!

I miss my panda!

I'm gonna try making fondant for baby :)

and some fried bounty bars!

5 more days...

2008-06-15T01:21:00.004+08:00

Baby oh baby.
Stupid daddy is still hogging your xbox360.
Your Armored core 4 is still screaming to be opened.
Your bunny here is rotting away...

Oh ya about anniversary, I forgot to say how noble is my baby that he spent most of his pay on me =) 2 days of car rental, petrol, tickets to all attractions, extremely good food, a new baby husky from build-a-bear, fish spa and alot more of food. Heh! We were planning on a trip to Japan for our anniversary celebration but he recieved the enlistment letter the day after. But it's OKAY cos our anniversary celebration was fabulous!

Aww baby so sweet!!! When he was still in school, he used to take cab to my place from school and home EVERYDAY! And that includes dinner! Sometimes even bring me out for supper. And every monniversary he brought me to dine somewhere special and every bill is definately more than 100. And most of all, he always surprise me with POCKY!!! Heh now I've tried more than 12 different flavor already =)

And my photoshop doesn't die on me anymore COS BABY FIXED IT FOR ME!

I truely appreciate what you've done for me!

I love my panda!!!!

Poor baby :(

2008-06-11T00:33:00.004+08:00

I was happily thinking that I can purchase 2 iphones 3G and replace my current iphone. A white one for me and black for baby. Just when I was about to tell him when he called, he told me something that's gonna make me worry for a very long time...

I Y you honey.

Please be okay.

Baby in Tekong

2008-06-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

Finally found my laptop.

That's the problem with a Macbook Air.

So thin that you won't notice.

2 months old yet all settings are still default like new.

Anyways...

BABY HAS GONE TO TEKONG ALREADY.

It has been 4 days and I am officially dying.

:'(

Our anniversary was ULTIMATELY FABULOUS!

I am gonna blog about it someday when I'm done editing the pictures.

Thank you baby for such a beautiful day filled with love and joy!

Am missing panda so much! & have to wait for him to watch kungfu panda together! Yea I am getting the happy meal toy and the xbox game. These few days I've been doing the Gundam model for baby and his special surprise. I want to learn how to airbrush the damn thing. I've the airbrush and compressor but I don't have the skill LOL! Apparently they belong to my dad. See baby, I am an awesome girlfriend! *Beam* I LOVE YOU BABY!

So close!

2008-06-01T20:23:00.002+08:00

4th of June, a very very important and significant day for me.
Nobody shall interupt me and you.

Lately, everything feels so sweet coming from you.
Baby I'm so gonna miss you so so much!

5th of June baby's going for NS. How cruel.
Why am I never ready.
It's the longest time I won't get to see him..

For the whole month of May I've been seeing him everyday.

Yet, it's never enough.

Daijoubu, Kitto Daijoubu!
We're gonna have a very special day!
Am still preparing for it.
Hopefully daddy will pass us the RX8 key.

YYY Love panda mosterest plus more!

I'm Back!

2008-05-19T02:42:00.004+08:00

Forget about the bad fight with baby.
Guess where we were on Saturday evening?

People had to queue like crazy but we had the express tickets so we need not queue at all. Thanks to panda's sister! :) She paid for our tickets so we went together with his whole family.

Lots of photos but look at the time now, I just had many face-off online on Guitar Hero III. Unlocking achievements is fun and it's only exclusive for xbox :) Addictive alright!

Shall blog again!

Do you still care?

2008-05-14T00:17:00.003+08:00

Sadly, you've proven that you aren't gonna care anymore because your love for me has died.
I don't understand what are we now.
Living dead with no soul?
Where's the passion in you for me?
I don't know how to deal with this pain.

不要再让我寂寞

2008-02-22T23:01:00.004+08:00

Why can't I be happy without you
like how you can have fun without me...

I don't want to be lonely anymore.

振作起来吧..

"You are free.."

POST NO. {502}

2007-12-06T08:43:00.000+08:00

BAH...
Updates!!
It's gonna be shortttt.....

Had our 5th monniversay last month

The monthly bunny and panda wallpaper.

And our new born panda.
26.11.07 but we decided it to be 25.11.07 so as not to remind my boyfriend of his fat friend's birthday which he can remember it more clearly than my birthday!UGH!

Had a Sentosa class outing on Monday.

Tuesday was our 6th monniversary.
I've decided not to post the 6th month wallpaper :)
No celebration, yet. Maybe not.

Wednesday we had another outing at Mindcafe and the game I enjoyed playing most is Taboo. It was hilarious!

That's all.

Cry of Pain

2007-11-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

"I wake up, it's a bad dream
No one on my side
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
To be fighting
Guess I'm not the fighting kind..."

It would be nice if there's someone out there to tell me that I'm doing fine...

B.R.B

2007-10-28T09:22:00.000+08:00

My 19th birthday

2007-10-07T11:20:00.000+08:00

Ello! Finally decided to blog cos I'm left with Sunday and that's it!

SCH//OOL DA{YS!!
aka no time for any other crap.

HOHOHO! I'm officially 19 now & I had a fabulous birthday!

Bleh. The day before panda said that he had to be at NTU to do his research for his FYP so he wouldn't meet me. Then at night he said he was going out with him friends for supper... I was like :( SO SAD!

My bestie kept telling me not to go out on that night cos he said he wanted to send me something on msn. And I was thought it was some power point presentation birthday greetings. (EEW? Seriously, I know someone gave that to the girlfriend as an anniversary surprise & it was awfully done!)

LOL I whined to Lisa over msn and I really couldn't be bothered to stay awake since Bestie wasn't online anymore to send that 'thing' and baby didn't even care to call me and wish me! I just didn't wanna spend the first hour of birthday feeling lonesome and crappy so I decided to turn in.

Then panda called me saying that he was with his friends and he asked me if I still want my surprise.. & I ran to get the door. Trala!

My boyfriend & my bestie came to wished me a ha[[ppy birthday when it was EXACTLY 12!

LOL They just happened to meet in the lift. LOL!

Watched abit of DAXFLAME on youtube and we left for supper after sending bestie home :)

Baby had his 'plaster' pratas and I had my Tehpeng at Jalan Kayu.

Then he drove to Changi and stopped somewhere where people fish at night. Heehee! Hugs and kisses and he sent me home. YYY

------------- morning.

WOOHOO! Woke up at 9 and gave Baby 55 missed calls. He came at 12 but my dearest classmates were on their way here so baby had time to make me FLOWER BRACELETS!

Aren't they pretty ?! :)

Baby then went to collect my birthday cake and to 'collect' Eilane, Gladys, Henzy, Joel & Lisa from sengkang MRT station. LOL. Edwin came right after they arrived!

After we had our lunch, we played UNO stacko. LOL It was agonizing for me!
But hey! I got to drink :P & it was the only time baby allowed me to drink.

Before the game, Tofu and Eilane asked if they could see my room. So I let them in and they locked themselves in. LOL And when I came in, I saw this...

Needless to say, *SCREAMS* I LOVE IT!

I was just telling baby the day before I wanted to get the hello kitty mouse with the left right clicks on the ribbon bow . Thanks Eilane, Gladys & Joel for the lovely surprise! :)

Then Bryn and Lumpy came. Thanks for the wine! :)
(Have yet to open it hahaha though)

LOL then they tried out the massage chair while we play UNO hydro.

Baby and Henzy were playing dominos using the UNO stackos. Oh well, they seemed like having lots of fun which... I didn't get why LOL!

& we played BLUFF using UNO and yadaydayda lol!
Played abit of NFS on PS2, the rest of them were playing Poker card games.
Edwin and baby were inflating more balloons *shrugs* LOL

Well, I hope everyone was having fun :)

Lisa pushed me to my room and wanted me to unwrap my present. LOL I asked if it was Doritos cool ranch and she said ya. So I thought it WAS then she said I was very gullible.

My swatchy gave a piggy plush handphone rest and...

HELLO KITTY PEZ!

OMG. YEA! HELLO KITTY MANIA! Thanks Swatchy! Love the prezzie!!! :)

When most of them are about to leave, baby got ready the stuff for cake cutting :)

Baby bought me a hello kitty cake!! SO CUTE!!! *SQUEAKS* It was small because he didn't know my friends were coming when he ordered the cake. BUT I LOVE IT! & It says "Happy birthday to my dearest bunny!" Hehehe! Thanks Baby! YYY

Hmm I'm not gonna post my friends' photos cos I think it's not very nice to post them without their permission :) but do tell me if you don't mind though!

Another photo of me with my pretty bracelet!

LOL ofcos I had to have the slice with hello kitty :)

Lastly,
OUR VERY PRETTY GROUP PHOTO!

Harng came after they left so we had another game of UNO and we had fun singing Britney's 'Gimme more' hahah! Hey! Hope you like you Vesace perfume/Cologne :) It's VINTAGE!

I'll blog another day on our 4th monniversay :)

BUT just let me finish this post with more hello kitty!
I BOUGHT THE LIPGLOSS from Candy empire!

This photo is pretty!

I was trying it on the train and people were staring at me like why the heck would I lick the lipgloss like some sick kid. HAH! It's a CANDY LIP GLOSS duh! So it's absolutely edible! Yummilicious!

Another candy dispenser thingy from Candy empire too.

And a squeaky toy from DAISO. :)

ps: I wanna thank those people who texted me and wished me a happy birthday. Yep it was a happy birthday :)

EDIT! ---

LOL I don't know if I have posted this before, but man! I love this! ODE TO ZACHBRAFF! I LOVE SCRUBS! BABY TOO! :) "I don't care what you say, in a non gay way I LOVE ZACH BRAFF! ZACH BRAFF!" Zach made him no.1 top rank on his MYSPACE friend list! JEALOUS! "That's why my ATM pin is B R A F F" LOL!

A Belated post

2007-10-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

Doing my birthday entry now.

wait la... abit long can? LOL

:) cheerios!

i-what?

2007-09-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

My dad bought an ....

iPhone.

AN i-FREAKING-PHONE!

And I thought it was an early birthday surprise for me but, no. :(

But at least I had so much fun with baby and together with...

Ultra-polarbear!

PS: Will do a 'SERIOUS' blogging tomorrow since it's PROJECT WEEK & I needn't go to school!

MIKURU BEAM ATTACK!

2007-09-18T01:47:00.000+08:00

Thanks to lumpy, my lumpiest classmate showed me some disturbing video... Now I have tape my mouth so that they won't stay wide open...

Original Mikuru beam!

THE GIRL IN RED BUNNY OUTFIT IS MIKURU! SO CUTE! ILOVEHER! AND WHEN SHE SQUEAKS IT'S LIKE AWWWWWWWW!!!!
Hehe! I set my contact profile ringtone on baby's handphone to the original mikuru's theme so whenever I call it will scare the crap out of everyone :P Let me change my blogsong to that too. Yea! I shall do it before I turn in! YI}}PPIE! Nah everyone in the house is sick of that song. Including my mom cos when I call it's the same ringtone. HAH! Bah I shall change it to my sms tone! YAY! SAME CUTENESS LEVEL! NIGHTS!

Happy birthday Hunk!

2007-09-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hello kitty greets :

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY

WHYHUNK!

Yay! Do you want a new blogskin as a birthday present?

Ofcos not! I'll buy you something duh! =)

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Tonight I wanna cry.

I wanna cry out loud...

I wanna scream...

I wanna tell the world my heartaches....

But all I can do is to cry silently..

UNO!

2007-09-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

Note :
my current blogsong is not totally in hokkien.
If you listen to Leehom's latest duet with Selena, I don't see what's so 'Orbiang'/odd with that. Prejudice.

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Yesterday baby and I went to watch 881!
oh mee goodness.

We were hogging the lift entrance waiting for the lift at Singapore Art Museum and then there's this tall guy who walked his way out of our crowd and it took us quite long to realise that it's 715 (qiyuwu). Wahaha!

No he wasn't carrying a cock. (kok kok keh)

The week before the whole class had a picnic at the school's "world class" 'golf course'. According to the 'man'(anonymous), Lasalle's artificial grass patches are very costly, so it's forbidden to be eating on them. Not even if you eat off the grass...

Oh well, HELLO KITTY madness!

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm not a hello kitty freak!
Don't judge me!

School hours are long and the intervals are even longer during certain days! So I always bring along a pack of UNO to school :) Baby's so sweet that he bought me a H20 UNO! The cards are waterproof and there's an xtra special card! Perhaps he know that I may drop mine into the toilet so it's best to get me the H20 set. HEEEE!

Yes this is my hello kitty set..

Uhhhhhh & I've seen the trailer for ARCTIC TALE !

XTRA CUTENESS

Like duh! I'm so gonna watch it!

It can't be bad cos I have wasted hours watching polarbears LIVE via webcam, sleeping, fighting and strolling around.

I shall bring my big eddy with me :)
Just incase if I tear or anything.. hahah!